In Remembrance (Diary)

Six Months has pass since my stepfather died in a terrible car accident...

Days before my stepfather pass away I had a weird dream. In this dream I saw myself passing by the highway then I saw an accident and stopped. I step out of my car and looked I saw a woman hurt inside her car and the rest of the people looking down the hill for something or someone. Then I looked down the hill and saw a car and someone was next to the car but I saw his clothes but could not see the his face.

One day pass…

And then I rented a move called “What dreams may come” by Robin Williams. It talks about an accident he had and he step out of the car and got killed. He left his wife alone and she ended up taking her life. Earlier in the movie they lost their two kids in a car accident. The husband after he pass away woke up in heaven and needed to get to hell to save his wife.

The same day I was looking at youtube in the internet and found a video that a mother did to honor her daughter who was killed in a traffic accident in a highway. She was run over by a truck in the highway she was only 21 yrs old.

After that I kept searching and found a video from “Tercer Cielo – Third Heaven” and it was called “Yo te extrañaré – I will miss you” and saw it and cried without any reason at all.

The next day I called my mom and as usual we started talking and I told her about a worried I had regarding my car and told her that I could have an accident if the part that was damaged in my car felt away.

Out of nowhere she said: “I see it coming”

All of the sudden she received a call and she said to me: “I call you right back, someone is calling me” and then I said: “Call me back ,ok?” She called back and said: “Wilfredo (her husband and my stepfather) had a bad accident and he is at the emergency room. His sister just called me and I need to go with them right now.” I said: “Ok but call me back”

She hang up the phone and went to the hospital then she called me from there and said: “Wilfredo is in a really bad condition. He broke his ribs, his artery is split in half, and a lot of contusion from the fall.” I said but what happen?” She said: “Apparently he was driving and something happen that he press the gas and the car was going really fast and hit two cars and then when down the hill. He jumped out of the car and he is really injured by the fall. The doctor told me to be ready because he probably won’t make it.”

Then the nurse called her again and she said: “I need to leave now. I have to see Wilfredo.”

I went to sleep that night thinking about my mom and my step father.

I was sleeping all of the sudden I heard a voice really close to my ear and said to me: “It is done, He has died”

I suddenly woke up and scream “Mami oh no Mami” after I said this the phone rang and I answered. It was my mom crying and she said: “Wilfredo pass away at 4:20am. He is dead”

I was in shock and didn’t know what to do should I cry or scream or encourage my mother. And I asked God to give me the words to speak to my mom at that crucial moment.

I said to her: “Right now, I now this is really hard for you but you need to be strong knowing that Jesus is there with you holding you and comforting you. God said He will never leave you, He is there with you at this very moment.”

She hangs up the phone… I knew that she was not okay.

The I called my brother in Puerto Rico and talked to him and started crying and I said “Please take care of my mom because I know she is not okay right now. I am worried about her.”

I called my sister and spoke to my niece and told her. She spoke to my nephew which always called my stepfather “Papa” they were really close but because stuff happen he could not be with him and want it to see him last holidays but could not for his probation. He started screaming and crying saying: “No, No my PAPA No” it was so hard that day for all of us.

Well, my mom and stepfather live together for 37 years. He took me under his care since I was six mos. Old.

After his funeral which I could not be there because I had some financial difficulties. I asked God: “I will like to know where Wilfredo is right now, Lord?”

And this is what God reply to me using a preacher, “When someone died you don’t ask where they went because they already belongs to me”

And you know what the best thing about all of this is that my stepfather accepted the Lord and was baptized a year before he passed away.

I did this video in his memory. The music is taken out of Jibara music from Puerto Rico. I was trying to record a music CD for him but could not get to him on time. All the music in the CD is in this video.